im in love with a guy

he's so shy and so cute.
he's good at music,he knows drum,electric guitar,guitar and piano.
he knows magic.
he is good at singing.
his voice makes me feel so sweet.
he is good at everything.

i though it was just a dream for my age people.
but I'm falling for you deeper and deeper.
i couldn't control myself.
although you will never know who am i,
but I'll still love you.
I'll hide in the corner of your life,
looking at you quietly.

i had a bad day.

today is my mum's birthday.
we decide to celebrate at pavillion.
but we end up our celebration in a bad situation.
we argue,
she said im not respecting her.
WHAT THE FUCK!
am i not respecting her?
take one photo repeating 3 times +,
some more keep complaining how bad is my taking photo skill.
bullshit!
fffffffff

if im wrong why not just tell me which part of me did wrong?
keep scolding..
keep scolding..
wtf
and never tell me what i did wrong.
sometimes i really dont know what is my wrong.
just let her scold for no point.
dammit.

my weekend end up like this.
sad.

when was the last time im so emo?

what am i thinking?i don't know.
what did i want?i don't know.
I'm emo for no reason.
i don't know what i want.
I'm confuse now.

sometimes things happen in a sudden.
pretend nothing is the best.
smiling hardly in front of others,
let no body know what I'm thinking.

i saw one of my friend cried today,
because of her boyfriend..
i feel so sad for her.
but i feel so touch.
i used to love someone so much before.
but the story doesn't had a nice ending.

i don't dare to cry,because i don't dare to think of it.
its the pass tense already.
i shouldn't think of it anymore.
but..=<